Appointment

On Friday, Adam and I met with our doctor (Dr. Loy) to discuss my surgery results and 'the plan.'  So what does that mean for us...well Dr. Loy drew out this elaborate detailed picture about the options available. As he was describing basic human anatomy/processes, I was just so intrigued about the complexity and wonder of how our Maker has designed each of us. (He has knit/woven us together so intricately). I'm so thankful how he continues to reveal himself to me in this process...

When he finished his explanation he said, "Call me on your next cycle day (CD) 1." I think my face said it all and then he said, "Well, wait... What CD are you on?" Calmly I said, "CD2" and then his response came to my surprise, "Ok, so I guess we can start this month!" I calmly sat in my chair but in my heart I was rejoicing and wanted to get up a do a happy dance. Finally we get to move forward. Does this necessarily mean will will have a baby right away? No, I'm no sucker...but my hope has been renewed in that slowly the waiting is becoming joyful expectation of HIS PERFECT TIMING!! 

So he sent his nurse in and she did an ovary check. All was looking "perfect" her words not mine. So now I'm taking Letrozole and next Sunday will go for a follow up ultrasound to check my progression and to have a blood test. If everything is looking as it should, then they will tell me when to take Ovidrel (a shot). Once we've done that Dr. Loy will let us know if we will then have our first IUI. 

Of course I'm truly working on living life day by day. I have no idea what the future holds for us because I never dreamed this is where we would be. But what I do know is that He is leading us. He is leading us to HIM. Many days I long to just sit before him like a weaned child sets with his/her mother...just to be present with HIM. Most of the time that's the only way I get through this. Being still and KNOWING He is God~ I am not. HE IS HUGE! I am not. 

I know many of you reading this might not have any idea about all this fertility stuff and it might seem crazy that I post all of this but I guess it's helping me see His faithfulness in our story but also so that HIS name can be made known. I am asking for a miracle-a baby- and I know he is faithful to his promises and will fulfill the desires of my heart. So when he does...I want to proclaim Him to the many who doubt or do not know that He is GOOD! He is SOVEREIGN! He is CRAZY about US?! 

Psalm 113

Who is like our Lord- OUR GOD- enthroned on high, who stoops down to look on the heavens and earth? 

He raises the poor, lifts the needy, and settles the barren woman in her home as a happy mother of children." 

Praise the LORD!!